For the conceptual side I see my works as a meta photograph of "Nothing", so I collect spores from the air, surroundings, personal items, pets, cars, subway, ash, church, body skin, antique items – and make them visible from the bio abstract side, contributing the power of invisible, unknown and the Big energy. But at the same time it's a collaboration with organisms ‒ I feed them with my canvas ‒ and they give new shades, tones and gradients with the help of their transporting and excretory systems.
Being in such an intimate and strong relations with the art matter, sometimes makes you the one with your creation
For the process I go to the kitchen and cook the nutrient (here I rethink the idea of gender and what is to be a woman artist, what if I do not want to cook a family meal, but gonna feed my artworks, and whisper them my love words, finally am I bad or good, am I still a woman?) There are a lot of different methods of making, like free seeding, when I can dance with the dish, or shout or cry, or just leave it for the air exposition, or use stencils and geometrical supplements, when want to control them (especially when it comes about logo growth for brands). Also the aspect of time as a medium is very noticeable, as I can not ask Nature to change life-cycles, which have been forming billions of years, I need to wait and to believe, as we all know that after the sunset it's always a sunrise :)
I want to undergo the idea of medium as the key point, because it affects the way how we explore art – it's immediately triggering your associations, experience, tastes, ego, as I believe that everything we see is a reflection of inside – so and art becomes a literal mirror, where we can see the truly us.
In some cases it's an AI, but natural, so the data is from me, result is from them, but under my supervision, because the only catalyst and decision maker in this collaboration is me and my perception, like when to take photographs or fix the result with epoxy? – so in this silence I meet the pure nature of chaos, chance and learn more about the Creator and Nature.
As for the identification of species (if it comes about my classical practice, where I'm interested in colours, texture relations and gradients), I do not want to categorise them, because imagine a conversation with a group of people, and your first question is – hey, what is your blood type, race, dark sides, preferences, no – you just enjoy the person itself, no matter what. Because we are all made out of one substance, is not it magnificent?!
So the process itself is very adrenaline-like, because I have a very limited period of time, before the nutrient hardens, around several minutes and I need to think about composition, layers, shades and accents. This is my type of emotional roller coaster, together with dopamine stimulating, as I always see new variants of growth, texture relations, patterns etc.
So I can describe it as when you feel the cooling ocean water in super hot summer, and you jump into the water from a giant cliff! and that fantastic and acute feeling in the first nano second – what I feel when I see my works at their final stage – and the whole process before – is like being exhausted and super sweaty, standing on that cliff, waiting for that discharge. Okay, it's my type of artistic and mental sex, playing with plateau, arguing, loving, shouting, agreeing, exploring, showing boundaries, learning, enjoying! I сan talk about this for ages!
the hands of an artist co-creating with nature